I Want To Run

Today…

i’m very sad…very very disappointed…

I really want to run…away…away away and away…

I don’t want to see his face

I don’t want to talk to him

I want to run and run…away and away

I’m too sad…too sad

I don’t even know what to ask, what to say

Will he answer me if i ask?

I don’t know what he’s doing although he’s around me

is he?

is he here for me?

is he here to comfort me after what happened today?

or is he being here all the time?

what did i do wrong?

what did i think wrong?

why don’t i deserve it?

i can’t even stand it anymore

time goes by

i’m worried

is he not?

i love him, perhaps more than other jerks, hypocrates i know

try to live as a ‘good’ kid

stay away from fire

still

i don’t deserve it

i asked for

still

i’m not having it

i tried

still

i didn’t make it

is it the cost of being a good girl?

everything is difficult?

i feel disgust to compare myself to other people who i know what kind of life they have and who they are

but seems like everything seems easy for them…(or perhaps…they just don’t learn and keep troubling other people)

I love you

from the bottom of my heart

I still don’t receive it

I’m crying

in front of you

because

only in front of people i love

i can cry

i can’t really-really hate you

no matter how i want it so much

no matter how loud i curse you

i can’t really really hate you

instead

i want to hug you

because

i’m fragile

i need to be hug

right now i really want to hear you say

i love you, too, kid

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Posted: Thursday, September 3rd, 2009 @ 4:22 pm
Categories: Poem (Words from the heart), Pray (Personal Chat).
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