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Faithful but why is this happening to me???
ah, isn’t that everyone’s question? (^o^)
I only look toward my Lord Jesus. He is the Son with capital S but he was treated like a criminal. You know what? Bad thing can happen to good people. Really.
Sometimes, it’s not because of faith i get good life, but because of faith i can get through tough times.
Bad things, disaster, sicko family, and you may add it to the list. it’s envitable sometimes…but faith that can make us through the difficult times.
Other notes:
Sometimes, no…ALWAYS in fact…i hate it when some people called themselves ‘faithful’ bring “God” or “Bible” or other Holly book when they are facing someone that is pouring out their trouble. You know what? People like that want to be understood, they want other people ‘can feel’ their problem and have empathy, not only sympathy, or the worst: being blamed!
I guess, when Lord Jesus cure people, He didn’t preach them like that’s because you are unfaithful, sinner, bla, bla, bla. He just cured them…ctak, ctak, ctak. I believe, He must have a very-very big love so He has a very big empathy to feel the sorrow. Then, He has mercy and willing to cure the people. Some people are thankful, some are not. He knew each one’s heart and even so, He cured them all.
So, when we are facing this kind of people, people who ‘preach’ us before understanding and showing empathy first, look up. Lord is there. Keep looking up! He is not blind, deaf, and incapable. Be strong and keep looking up, He’ll show you the way…somehow. One day you look back, you’ll see…aaahh, that was my rough path…it wasn’t that ugly. I was hurt but i can be hurt more. You’ll know, a big Power has been with you all the time.
I remember…one day, me and a crazy charismatic person went to her employee’s house. Her employee’s father was passed away. The wife (mother) was crying and very-very sad. I felt touched and I wanted to comfort her. I came to her and comfort her. I didn’t even know her and it was even my first met with her! And you know what the crazy charismatic person said to me? (the coffin was right in front of us) it’s more like ‘mocking’,”look…that their life…it’s because bla, bla, bla, bla…” I was surprised she said that in a cynical and blaming way (the words were already awful and added with the tone…my dear Lord…fuuuhh). The ‘dead’ man was in front of us! the family was in deep sadness and she whispered that to me?!
Believe me, if I didn’t look up and ‘see’ Lord’s smile, I’ve already left my faith!
We can ‘learn’ faith from bible but we ‘can’t make it alive just like that. Have a heart, a true heart and it will be alive.
That charismatic freak always talked about love, tenderness, bla, bla, bla… “Spirit fruit” . But really, I didn’t see anything like that coming from her. I didn’t even feel it. All i felt about her was she was a cold-heart person. She twisted any statement for her own interest and so she would be looked good. I really couldn’t see anything good on her. Even so, I left her to my Lord because no matter what I said, she would twist it.
I keep looking up. I smile everytime I remember when I was still closed to that freak person (really…i’m not lying…totally freak). why? because i felt grateful in the end of reminiscing,”Thank’s God, He saved me from that person. Thank’s God! If He didn’t do anything, i would have been ‘dead’ by now.”
And hey, keep your head to look upon our Lord is, too, a struggle. So, don’t worry (^.^). You are not alone.
Posted: Friday, October 2nd, 2009 @ 6:40 pm
Categories: Personal Thought (!).
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