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Perfectionista Me!
I don’t feel I’m quite a competitive person. I am competitive but with myself. I think my husband sees me torturing myself quite often because of it.
I’ve been trying to learn to sew doll clothing (BJD 1/4 size so far (It’s my fave size, not too big, not too small, medium-cute-lovely size)). I saw this store and this is one of the item:
http://www.iplehouse.net/shop/step1.php?number=1327
I haven’t got there, YET. But really, I printed their cloth pics…to copy them? No! but to see how they made They made it PERFECTLY. For a small size, their works are arts! I envy them! Really. Jealouuuussssssyyyyyy *tamama mode on*. I checked out their web quite often. To see something new? to copy something? NO, but because it encourages me to achieve their level. The neat, the seam, the finishing, the SHAPE (how it looks on bjd), I really want their technique ‘secret’.
I don’t like purchasing clothes especially for doll. I like making them but really, this web has made me do it. To rip off and copy their pattern? NO! but to see how they do the finishing and compare it with my own technique. (Whenever it comes to sew, i become really-really serious)
I think i never got this serious while doing study in high school or uni. I mean, i was serious but the joy, I didn’t really feel it. I just thought: i had nothing else to do, so i study. Now, I have a choice. Somehow, when it comes to sew, i always want to be perfect. I do handsew finishing if necessary. I can create like today: 6 doll pants just to figure out which one is the best. I believe, some people will stop at the 4th trial. The 4th trial pants was ok but I wasn’t satisfied. I want it smooth on my doll. Yeeeessss…it’s a doll. I know, i know (-.-). But still, I want it as perfect as when I make one for myself. Apparently, the sewing technique is a little bit different and there was a ‘trick’ that i found in the end. If I must make another pants or the 7th one, i would have fell asleep in front of my sewing machine (@.@).
Detail may distract me whenever something wrong. 1 mm difference, unproportional look, wrinkle, etc…(>x<). Some people tolerate this but I don’t really like accidentally unproportional look. It’s a mistake to me. If i want to an ‘abstract’, i’ll do it in ‘full power’, not half power like it’s an accident but i call it an art…blah. I’m spontaneous but i won’t deny if there’s some detail is annoying (>.>)…
I don’t always satisfy with my work but I’m proud of my each work because it shows the ‘journey of learning to perfection’. I don’t know what the perfect exactly is but whenenver I see something that i think flawless, yes, it’s perfect. I want that, too, I want the skill…
I don’t have the money for the pants right now but whenever i have the budget and they still have the stock, believe me, i’ll buy it. i want to see how they did it on jeans pants. Really, even in real jeans pants, i haven’t done it before. I’d love to but i made needle stuck in my sewing machine while sewing jeans bag years ago. Until now, I’m still having a trauma. Only my husband can fix it…it’s because, i’ll be crying already (^.^)””. So, i need a calm person to handle this trouble (^o^).
I purchased a ‘basic’ set of clothes from them. Not kind of ruffle or lacy dress or cloth…it’s quite plain for me. I will learn how they do finishing. If they do something that I thought I would do but I didn’t because it was too ‘fuzzy’, I’ll be doomed…hahaha…It means, they really-really did a very high level sewing technique and thus, I will chase them…then there’s not doubt, i will do it (though I’m lazy)…
Perfectionist. I think that’s my middle name.
I think my husband was correct…yes, i’m torturing myself and my budget (TxT). No fancy food for this month, nichan…take that, girl. it’s the cost for your middle name
Posted: Friday, November 27th, 2009 @ 11:27 pm
Categories: Personal Thought (!).
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