Go home
Sometimes, I feel ‘normal’
but surrounded by crazy abnormal people…
I don’t know what attracts them toward me as I always despise such people…
I just had a chat with my doll-lover web-buddy…Kind of odd, she looked normal to me but been attracted with crazy people like I am (^o^)…
She said something like “too open” and “naive”…She’s kind of fierce girl, yet, she’s actually nice inside…straight to the point when talking but not kind of someone who’s harmful to be a friend with.
I just thought again, yeah, that!…I had several issues of being “too open” (too nice to other people) and ‘naive’ (expect other people will be nice to me as well)… I always ended up with people who then suck my energy, my skill, my kindness, my politeness…
Really, I’m sick and tired with that. I see my other friends and some people i knew rarely got this kind of issue…My husband used to tell me,”you were too open…Look ‘this’ and ‘that’ ‘person’…they can create a space and they are very reserved. You need to do that.”
ONCE i did that, STILL someone made trouble with me and I spoke to my husband about it as this person is his relative. I DON’T ACCEPT THAT TREATMENT!…I said to my husband how I actually had showed my ‘attitude’, trying not to get too closed anymore but still some people, SOME PEOPLE ARE TOO WHAT? DUMMY OR BLIND OR JUST DON’T WANT TO SEE? MY ATTITUDE CHANGE!.
Now, my decision is final: i’m not going to visit to that house again for unknown span of time. Not even in big days like Christmas and Easter.
That is one of examples i have…
I wonder, really, what attracts them toward me (and people such my webbuddy) ACTUALLY…
We don’t expect sucks people surrounding us of course. We are trying to be nice to others (and we are, in our own style), yet, some people toy us for their own, I don’t know, pleasure (feeling of powerful) perhaps? or they just have their own motive (they want something from us) or they just underestimate us…
Posted: Friday, March 26th, 2010 @ 2:20 am
Categories: Life, Personal Thought (!).
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